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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
There are times when I get jaded, but I've gotten over that now. When I need to get motivated, getting new things inspire me. During the first week of school, I like to go stationery shopping because it makes me want to use them for class.
That's mainly the reason why I've decided to get an iPhone. I've been toggling with the idea for a while now, but it's the fabulous app that helped me make my decision.
Click the link for the demo! :)
Thank you Apple!
That's mainly the reason why I've decided to get an iPhone. I've been toggling with the idea for a while now, but it's the fabulous app that helped me make my decision.
Click the link for the demo! :)
Thank you Apple!
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 12:42 AM
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By 
Anonymous, at
5:47 AM
Thursday, October 08, 2009
I want a cure tonight.
I see no more holes at the tip of my finger tips
I don't smell the alcohol from the swabs
I'm not thinking about how much carbs are in a meal
I don't feel Tommy all tangled up around me as I sleep
I don't know what Simvastatin tastes like before it's swallowed
Could You heal me? Please?
I see no more holes at the tip of my finger tips
I don't smell the alcohol from the swabs
I'm not thinking about how much carbs are in a meal
I don't feel Tommy all tangled up around me as I sleep
I don't know what Simvastatin tastes like before it's swallowed
Could You heal me? Please?
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 12:43 AM
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Sunday, September 27, 2009
I'm absolutely zonked.
When there's a pile of things in your heart and on your mind, you wonder how to balance between the two.
I need a time out.
Father, please hold my hand through this.
When there's a pile of things in your heart and on your mind, you wonder how to balance between the two.
I need a time out.
Father, please hold my hand through this.
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 9:04 PM
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Thursday, September 24, 2009
On a day like this when there are a thousand things to do and a looming deadline for school, I guess I really shouldn't be doing this. But when I turned on my computer to attempt to complete an assignment that's due next week, I spent a good half an hour (and counting as I'm typing this...) with my diabetes.
It's all too easy to get caught up with everything else, like dinner appointments, meetings in church and rushing to meet my assignment deadline. Making sure my blood sugars are in good range really shouldn't be any less important than any of the abovementioned.
In fact, how my blood sugars are at the start of the day usually determines how productive my day would be. On days that I wake up lethargic because of the high reading on my meter, I know I'm off to a bad start because my body hasn't really rested the whole night. On days when I wake up low, it's almost impossible to get out of bed because my body automatically tries to conserve whatever energy's left and makes it impossible to even get my eyes open.
After some 13 hour days shuffling between home, school, church and dinner appointments, it's time to stop and take a breath and get reconnected with my diabetes. Reading patient blogs have become some sort of therapy. I feel rejuvenated, motivated and ready to take on the tasks at hand. It's good to know I'm not the only one with diabetes that's been trying to get through a rough week. :)
It's all too easy to get caught up with everything else, like dinner appointments, meetings in church and rushing to meet my assignment deadline. Making sure my blood sugars are in good range really shouldn't be any less important than any of the abovementioned.
In fact, how my blood sugars are at the start of the day usually determines how productive my day would be. On days that I wake up lethargic because of the high reading on my meter, I know I'm off to a bad start because my body hasn't really rested the whole night. On days when I wake up low, it's almost impossible to get out of bed because my body automatically tries to conserve whatever energy's left and makes it impossible to even get my eyes open.
After some 13 hour days shuffling between home, school, church and dinner appointments, it's time to stop and take a breath and get reconnected with my diabetes. Reading patient blogs have become some sort of therapy. I feel rejuvenated, motivated and ready to take on the tasks at hand. It's good to know I'm not the only one with diabetes that's been trying to get through a rough week. :)
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 3:30 PM
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I'm a little late with this post since Invisible Illness Week was Sep 14 - 20. But I'll post it anyway.
1. The illness I live with is: Type 1 Diabetes
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: May 1999
3. But I had symptoms since: 6 months before
4. The biggest adjustment I've had to make is: my eating habits.
5. Most people assume: I brought this disease upon myself when it really isn't the case.
6. The hardest part about mornings are: waking up with a high because it makes me feel like I haven't slept all night.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: Don't really have one actually. Haven't watched much TV lately.
8. A gadget I couldn't live without is: Tommy - my insulin pump
9. The hardest part about nights are: Waking up with a headful of sweat and scrambling for the fridge for something sweet to raise my blood sugar levels fast.
10. Each day I take 2 pills & vitamins: Simvastatin as a therapy drug and sometimes Vitamin C during flu season.
11. Regarding alternative treatments: I don't think there's anything better than what I'm using now, so I'm pretty content with my current treatment plan.
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I have to say that there were times when I did wish it was visible so I didn't need to have to explain myself if I had to quit a job (at the childcare) or inform teachers that they need to allow me to have something sweet in class when I'm low.
13. Regarding working and career: I'm not there yet, but I foresee many challenges that I would need to overcome in order to stay healthy and prevent getting lows all the time.
14. People would be surprised to know: that as invisible as it is, it's a battle that we fight all day long. Literally.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: sharing about the disease with people is mandatory in the case of an emergency and not when I'm comfortable about sharing it. I did wish it was the other way around though.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: to be candid about the disease and be truly comfortable with who I am as a person with the disease.
17. The commercials about my illness: are mostly about Type 2 diabetes. It frustrates me sometimes because it gives people the wrong idea about Type 1 diabetes.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: I can't quite remember since it's been 10 years now.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: the freedom to eat what I wanted, when I wanted without worrying about my sugar levels.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: my workout at the gym. It's a fantastic form of stress relief from school and from the illness.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: take a really long swim on a beach in a foreign land. I wouldn't be worrying about whether it's been too long since I've taken Tommy off me.
22. My illness has taught me: to have faith in His plans.
23. One thing people say that gets under my skin is: 'I think you better not eat this.' It's not that I disregard your concern, but it gets annoying when you act upon something you don't really know much about.
24. But I love it when people: use the disease to surprise me. Having coke light at parties really make my heart smile.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: I don't particularly have a favourite motto, scripture or quote, but it's the reminder to be thankful for everything else that I've been blessed with despite the tough times.
26. When someone is diagnosed I'd like to tell them: it's not going to be easy, but you're not alone either.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: how God has used it to help me grow deeper in faith and love for Him.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn't feeling well was: to make the walk for me to get Yakult when I was low.
29. I'm involved with Invisible Illness Week because: it's a whole different ball game when it's invisible. It's not easier than visible illnesses, but it presents a whole different set of challenges to overcome. I only wish to give it a voice even if I have a tiny one.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: grateful. Hopefully, it's been worth your time. :)
1. The illness I live with is: Type 1 Diabetes
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: May 1999
3. But I had symptoms since: 6 months before
4. The biggest adjustment I've had to make is: my eating habits.
5. Most people assume: I brought this disease upon myself when it really isn't the case.
6. The hardest part about mornings are: waking up with a high because it makes me feel like I haven't slept all night.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: Don't really have one actually. Haven't watched much TV lately.
8. A gadget I couldn't live without is: Tommy - my insulin pump
9. The hardest part about nights are: Waking up with a headful of sweat and scrambling for the fridge for something sweet to raise my blood sugar levels fast.
10. Each day I take 2 pills & vitamins: Simvastatin as a therapy drug and sometimes Vitamin C during flu season.
11. Regarding alternative treatments: I don't think there's anything better than what I'm using now, so I'm pretty content with my current treatment plan.
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I have to say that there were times when I did wish it was visible so I didn't need to have to explain myself if I had to quit a job (at the childcare) or inform teachers that they need to allow me to have something sweet in class when I'm low.
13. Regarding working and career: I'm not there yet, but I foresee many challenges that I would need to overcome in order to stay healthy and prevent getting lows all the time.
14. People would be surprised to know: that as invisible as it is, it's a battle that we fight all day long. Literally.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: sharing about the disease with people is mandatory in the case of an emergency and not when I'm comfortable about sharing it. I did wish it was the other way around though.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: to be candid about the disease and be truly comfortable with who I am as a person with the disease.
17. The commercials about my illness: are mostly about Type 2 diabetes. It frustrates me sometimes because it gives people the wrong idea about Type 1 diabetes.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: I can't quite remember since it's been 10 years now.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: the freedom to eat what I wanted, when I wanted without worrying about my sugar levels.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: my workout at the gym. It's a fantastic form of stress relief from school and from the illness.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: take a really long swim on a beach in a foreign land. I wouldn't be worrying about whether it's been too long since I've taken Tommy off me.
22. My illness has taught me: to have faith in His plans.
23. One thing people say that gets under my skin is: 'I think you better not eat this.' It's not that I disregard your concern, but it gets annoying when you act upon something you don't really know much about.
24. But I love it when people: use the disease to surprise me. Having coke light at parties really make my heart smile.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: I don't particularly have a favourite motto, scripture or quote, but it's the reminder to be thankful for everything else that I've been blessed with despite the tough times.
26. When someone is diagnosed I'd like to tell them: it's not going to be easy, but you're not alone either.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: how God has used it to help me grow deeper in faith and love for Him.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn't feeling well was: to make the walk for me to get Yakult when I was low.
29. I'm involved with Invisible Illness Week because: it's a whole different ball game when it's invisible. It's not easier than visible illnesses, but it presents a whole different set of challenges to overcome. I only wish to give it a voice even if I have a tiny one.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: grateful. Hopefully, it's been worth your time. :)
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 2:12 PM
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I truly admire your courage in sharing your deepest thoughts and situation with your illness.
it is with your sharings that give us, especially me a better insight to the world you live in.
do continue to fight on and stay strong...
By 
Colin Gabriel, at
2:53 AM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
00:05
00:04
00:03
00:02
00:01
*beeeeeeeep*
The past 3 months rests on the number that appears on the screen of the HbA1c machine. My goal is to get a hit between 5-7mmol/L. It's the only way to know that I'm doing my health justice. It would be nice to know that all those nights spent at the gym and fretting over carbohydrate counting has paid off in some way.
I'm not the most diligent and uptight controller of the disease, this I do admit, but I know that I'm not going to allow myself to slip into a phase of horrendous control and complications. There's so much to live for and be grateful for.
7.2mmol/L
I'm so on my way to my goal.
00:04
00:03
00:02
00:01
*beeeeeeeep*
The past 3 months rests on the number that appears on the screen of the HbA1c machine. My goal is to get a hit between 5-7mmol/L. It's the only way to know that I'm doing my health justice. It would be nice to know that all those nights spent at the gym and fretting over carbohydrate counting has paid off in some way.
I'm not the most diligent and uptight controller of the disease, this I do admit, but I know that I'm not going to allow myself to slip into a phase of horrendous control and complications. There's so much to live for and be grateful for.
7.2mmol/L
I'm so on my way to my goal.
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 11:26 AM
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Life has an uncanny ability to help you through the struggles that you face. Just 2 days ago, I was counting down to the time that I was next due at Warren's clinic. It's not a countdown made in the spirit of enthusiasm because I do admit this tinge of fear, though slight is enough to keep me awake thinking about it before I go to bed.
In times like these, it does feel like diabetes has got a grasp on my mental state of being. Emotionally, it's the type of feeling you get right before a major examination where all you can think about is if you've studied enough or if you could actually pass the darn thing.
Then just when life passes you lemons, it teaches you to make lemonade.
Reading Kerri's blog today made me feel a whole lot better. It helps to know that I'm not the only one who's fretting over my next HbA1c results.
In times like these, it does feel like diabetes has got a grasp on my mental state of being. Emotionally, it's the type of feeling you get right before a major examination where all you can think about is if you've studied enough or if you could actually pass the darn thing.
Then just when life passes you lemons, it teaches you to make lemonade.
Reading Kerri's blog today made me feel a whole lot better. It helps to know that I'm not the only one who's fretting over my next HbA1c results.
Rachel wrote in the pages of her life at 6:07 PM
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myself at a glance...
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In Alphabetical order...
Aaron Chua
Adrian
Amanda
Amos
Andrea
Angel
Angela
Angie
Annabel
Anthony
Benedict
Benjamin Chia
Benjamin Goh
Benjamin Lai
Benson
Beverley
Celine
Cheryl Lee
Cheryl Mah
Christina
Christine
Constance
Daphne
Dawn
Dorothy
Edward
Eleanor
Ema
Freda
Gary
Geraldine
Grace
Hilary
Isabel
Jacqueline
Janice
Javier
Jeanette
Jillian
Joann
Joel
Josephine
Joyce
Julia
Kaiying
Kershia
Kimberley
Louis
Luke
Lynette
Marisa
Matilda
Matthew
Matthew Goh
Melanie
Mervyn
Michelle
Nicole
Oliver
Pamela
Peiwen
Pinkie
Rachael
Raehui
Rafael
Rowena
Roxanne
Ruo Yun
Sean Chew
Sean
Shabin
Sheryl
Shu
Stefan
Theresa
Thomas
Ugenie
Vanessa
Victoria
Weng Hoong
Xiao Ting
Xi Er
Yi Jun
Yu Ting
Yvonne